I miss the JCrew catalogs from 10 years ago when I was in highschool. There was an outdoorsy artsy feel to the clothes. Not that I could afford them then, still can't. I'd sit for hours flipping through a years worth of those catalogs - the cool looking ladies towing a rowboat in a flannel nightshirt and boots and the suede peacoat that seemed to go so well w/ the field boots. How'd I come to this thought you ask? I was sitting at my desk - holding my head as it's aching something wicked - and staring at my mary janes. The toe of them is all that seems to show when I'm standing up and they remind me of this pair of field boots from the catalog 10 years back. I always liked those boots.
I'm finding it extremely difficult to keep my eyes focused on the computer screen today, well in all honesty any focus is difficult right now. This back and forth changing weather is wreaking havoc on my sinus' and if this headaches persists - and the loud talking, screaming stories down the hall, and knuckle rapping on my window - I very well may sit down and cry. Seriously. Or throw up on my shoes....
I'm feeling in need of inspiration of some kind. I'll be honest - I'm kind of glum today. Not that I'm really in a BAD mood persay, just glum. Tired, head hurts, stuff on my mind that I'm struggling with. Feels like I need a nap, perhaps a hug, more tylenol.....And I wonder what kind of inspiration I can find to lift me back up.
Perhaps the thought of toast and jam for dinner, or an earlier bedtime tonight. Maybe....
I'm very excited for my hammerhead shark tattoo. I should (hopefully) be able to get it in the next few weeks. I'm very excited. I can't help but wonder how the hammer heads' head feels. You know, with the scalloped edges. Not that I plan on jumping into a school of em to find out mind you.....
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Friday, January 16, 2009
1. I love to write. Mostly blogs and poems.
2. I love punk music - it's poetic with hardcore riffs. You can't beat that.
3. I love to dance - when no one's looking.
4. I refuse to eat eggs - unless baked into something or in a quiche.
5. It's the running joke in my family that I cannot cook. Maybe that tuna pizza 12 years was not a good idea...
6. When I pray, I usually start out w/ "hey dude, so here's the thing..." I think that's perfectly okay.
7. I recently started drawing. I may not be the best, but it sure is fun. I "specialize" in marine life and the occasional rabbit.
8. I love marine life, sharks are my favorite - the hammerhead to be exact. I find myself collecting any and all books and documentaries about them when I can afford it.
9. I want to be this close to a whale - to pet it and touch it's tongue. Even if it sounds a little scary. I love those stories of the whales to come to the ships' sides and just look at you while the passengers pet them.
10. I am 28 and even now when I get really scared I sneak into my twin's bed.
11. I have a fake name - Phoebe Hollingsworth - I've only used it once.
12. I am afraid of heavy wind and the very sound of howling wind makes me queasy with fear.
13. It took me 2 years to get the guts to get my first tattoo. 4 years later I have 6 and plan to get my 7th sometime this month.
14. My twin sister makes all my jewelry with the exception of the turquoise ring my mom gave me years ago.
15. I love to take photos. Mostly nature and scenic-scapes.
16. I can eat 3 bowls of cinnamon toast crunch in one sitting.
17. There's still ALOT I don't understand in the Bible. I ask alot of questions.
18. There's alot of people I'd like to meet, but the (3) that stand out are: Bruce Springsteen, Patsy Clairmont, Rob Stewart (creator of Sharkwater. Watch it immediately. The best documentary I have ever seen).
19. I'm generally very shy. I surprise myself everynow and then when I get to the urge to prove to myself that I can do something. The last two were: reading a poem at a poetry reading full of strangers, singing karoake - and I've never sung by myself in public before. What a rush!
20. I am hooked on old tv shows like: Magnum PI, The Ateam, Simon & Simon, Charlies Angels.
21. Once many years ago I had a very bad panic attack in my sleep (I go through spells where they get really bad) and this one I felt I couldn't breathe but couldn't seem to wake up from the sleep. Wierd how I was aware of the attack but couldn't seem to wake up. Anyway I felt someone rubbing my back and shoulders and gently saying, it's okay Beth, just breathe. Just breathe. It's okay just breathe.
The next morning I thanked my sister for soothing me and it wasn't her. To this day I believe it was an angel.
22. I love making lists.
23. I like that my hair has that spikey messy bedhead look.
24. I was going to grow my hair out - but after reading line 23 I've decided I like it better shorter and spikey.
25. I could eat pizza at Mellow Mushroom and Tacos at Monterreys every day! Okay okay maybe 3 times a week.
2. I love punk music - it's poetic with hardcore riffs. You can't beat that.
3. I love to dance - when no one's looking.
4. I refuse to eat eggs - unless baked into something or in a quiche.
5. It's the running joke in my family that I cannot cook. Maybe that tuna pizza 12 years was not a good idea...
6. When I pray, I usually start out w/ "hey dude, so here's the thing..." I think that's perfectly okay.
7. I recently started drawing. I may not be the best, but it sure is fun. I "specialize" in marine life and the occasional rabbit.
8. I love marine life, sharks are my favorite - the hammerhead to be exact. I find myself collecting any and all books and documentaries about them when I can afford it.
9. I want to be this close to a whale - to pet it and touch it's tongue. Even if it sounds a little scary. I love those stories of the whales to come to the ships' sides and just look at you while the passengers pet them.
10. I am 28 and even now when I get really scared I sneak into my twin's bed.
11. I have a fake name - Phoebe Hollingsworth - I've only used it once.
12. I am afraid of heavy wind and the very sound of howling wind makes me queasy with fear.
13. It took me 2 years to get the guts to get my first tattoo. 4 years later I have 6 and plan to get my 7th sometime this month.
14. My twin sister makes all my jewelry with the exception of the turquoise ring my mom gave me years ago.
15. I love to take photos. Mostly nature and scenic-scapes.
16. I can eat 3 bowls of cinnamon toast crunch in one sitting.
17. There's still ALOT I don't understand in the Bible. I ask alot of questions.
18. There's alot of people I'd like to meet, but the (3) that stand out are: Bruce Springsteen, Patsy Clairmont, Rob Stewart (creator of Sharkwater. Watch it immediately. The best documentary I have ever seen).
19. I'm generally very shy. I surprise myself everynow and then when I get to the urge to prove to myself that I can do something. The last two were: reading a poem at a poetry reading full of strangers, singing karoake - and I've never sung by myself in public before. What a rush!
20. I am hooked on old tv shows like: Magnum PI, The Ateam, Simon & Simon, Charlies Angels.
21. Once many years ago I had a very bad panic attack in my sleep (I go through spells where they get really bad) and this one I felt I couldn't breathe but couldn't seem to wake up from the sleep. Wierd how I was aware of the attack but couldn't seem to wake up. Anyway I felt someone rubbing my back and shoulders and gently saying, it's okay Beth, just breathe. Just breathe. It's okay just breathe.
The next morning I thanked my sister for soothing me and it wasn't her. To this day I believe it was an angel.
22. I love making lists.
23. I like that my hair has that spikey messy bedhead look.
24. I was going to grow my hair out - but after reading line 23 I've decided I like it better shorter and spikey.
25. I could eat pizza at Mellow Mushroom and Tacos at Monterreys every day! Okay okay maybe 3 times a week.
Friday Realizations
Day: Friday
Time: 11:07 am
Temp - cold
Mood: Pretty Grand
So here's the thing. I think - as much as I don't want to admit this - that Mr. Crush and I will not happen. I don't know. Nothing terribly specific yet specific enough for me to get the picture. I was speaking to my confidante on the topic and found out I may have made him uncomfortable. Now alright I didn't do anything outlandish to get into trouble, however I must have unknowingly come on too strong.
Whoops. So I've backed off a good bit. I'd rather have the rejection than knowing I've made him uncomfortable. That's the very last thing I had intended.
So he's come around and made jokes in the past day or so, so I feel like the back off helped. However he mentioned a date last night so I'm thinking now would be a great time to get over the crush, Mr. Crush that is, and move on. Be grateful we have a good funny repoire and be done with it. I'll admit I'm a little bummed - he's a really nice guy - yet I'm not terribly 'crushed'. Weird. I wonder if maybe I build things up in my head so big and so fast I just unknowingly scare guys, kid myself into believing his being super nice was a come on. I don't know. It's very possible.
I AM guy illiterate you know... And that' that bit of news.
It is cold - way cold for down South. However I've heard countless people freaking out about possible 13 degree lows tonight. OMG what ever will we do?! Umm... put on another sweater? Wear mittens? Don't go swimming? I've been kindly reminded that while I grew up in the North, many folks down here have not experienced this kind of cold. So again I'm shutting up w/ my comments. Mostly...hehe.
Dude it IS cold and by the time I get inside my hands are numb but you know it's kinda nice at the same time. Granted I don't think I'd want to sit out in it all day. But it's nice - it's crisp and sunny and I like it.
I have an exciting appt tomorrow that I'm not going to say anything more until I find out more.
I'm very excited to have dinner w/ Mel Sunday night. Seriously so so excited. It's been forever.
I really don't have else to discuss so I'm going w/ bullet points of niceness:
. red beans and rice w/ keilbasa sausage - add shredded cheese, sour cream, tomatoes, black olives. So yummy!
. heavy turtleneck sweaters
. flannel pjs and woolly slippers
. hot tea, a blanket and lying on the couch watching old tv shows.
. my bible study group - they all rock, they're real, honest, will tell you the truth, great ladies who mean more to me than I can ever say.
.oldies radio stations. I love them. Oldies make me smile, sing along, tap my feet (of course if no one is around) and basically the music puts me in a good mood.
. it's Friday!!!! That alone is pretty cool.
. the word Rad. I don't know...it's so oldschool, but I love it.
Time: 11:07 am
Temp - cold
Mood: Pretty Grand
So here's the thing. I think - as much as I don't want to admit this - that Mr. Crush and I will not happen. I don't know. Nothing terribly specific yet specific enough for me to get the picture. I was speaking to my confidante on the topic and found out I may have made him uncomfortable. Now alright I didn't do anything outlandish to get into trouble, however I must have unknowingly come on too strong.
Whoops. So I've backed off a good bit. I'd rather have the rejection than knowing I've made him uncomfortable. That's the very last thing I had intended.
So he's come around and made jokes in the past day or so, so I feel like the back off helped. However he mentioned a date last night so I'm thinking now would be a great time to get over the crush, Mr. Crush that is, and move on. Be grateful we have a good funny repoire and be done with it. I'll admit I'm a little bummed - he's a really nice guy - yet I'm not terribly 'crushed'. Weird. I wonder if maybe I build things up in my head so big and so fast I just unknowingly scare guys, kid myself into believing his being super nice was a come on. I don't know. It's very possible.
I AM guy illiterate you know... And that' that bit of news.
It is cold - way cold for down South. However I've heard countless people freaking out about possible 13 degree lows tonight. OMG what ever will we do?! Umm... put on another sweater? Wear mittens? Don't go swimming? I've been kindly reminded that while I grew up in the North, many folks down here have not experienced this kind of cold. So again I'm shutting up w/ my comments. Mostly...hehe.
Dude it IS cold and by the time I get inside my hands are numb but you know it's kinda nice at the same time. Granted I don't think I'd want to sit out in it all day. But it's nice - it's crisp and sunny and I like it.
I have an exciting appt tomorrow that I'm not going to say anything more until I find out more.
I'm very excited to have dinner w/ Mel Sunday night. Seriously so so excited. It's been forever.
I really don't have else to discuss so I'm going w/ bullet points of niceness:
. red beans and rice w/ keilbasa sausage - add shredded cheese, sour cream, tomatoes, black olives. So yummy!
. heavy turtleneck sweaters
. flannel pjs and woolly slippers
. hot tea, a blanket and lying on the couch watching old tv shows.
. my bible study group - they all rock, they're real, honest, will tell you the truth, great ladies who mean more to me than I can ever say.
.oldies radio stations. I love them. Oldies make me smile, sing along, tap my feet (of course if no one is around) and basically the music puts me in a good mood.
. it's Friday!!!! That alone is pretty cool.
. the word Rad. I don't know...it's so oldschool, but I love it.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Be forewarned - I'm grumpy.
Okay so here's the thing. My twin and I were talking last night, venting more like but who's counting. A paitent had asked her yesterday if she was married engaged or dating anyone. She said no. He was so so shocked. As in why aren't you married? Don't you WANT to get married? What's wrong w/ you? That type of attitude.
She was automatically defensive. And Saturday the Grandparents and Aunt asked about our status. Single. Hmm well he's out there. Yeah we know. Well don't fret. We're not.... You know some people just arent' MEANT to be married. At want point did we say we didn't want to get married? At what point did it become okay to give out guilt trips about our parents wanting more grandkids? At what flippin point do people get the right to corner us and insinuate that just cause we're 28 and single we should get pity? Yes I want to one day get married. Yes one day I want kids. Yes I miss really great sex. But I don't NEED a man to make my life complete. I know how to live my life w/o a man and have done so before. I've had the great boyfriend that I fell in love with. I've had the boyfriend that made me cringe at the thought of dating again if it would be like that again. I've been there. I know what I want and I more importantly know what I don't want and will not put up with. I refuse to settle for less just so I can join the group of "going steady" the group of "marrieds". Dammit why can't people stop doling out pity and criticism and ask " hey how are you? How are you enjoying life?" they'd get a much better and less defensive answer from both my twin and I. Guarranteed. I know this is bordering on ranting but it really ticks me off. Not to say I haven't had some friends say Gee I can't imagine why you don't have a boyfriend, you're cool!" And that's okay. I can handle that. But the criticism and pity is a crock.
On another note I would so love to curl up in my jammies and lay on the couch. Today's not that terribly great. Okay okay it could be alot worse. I'm good really I am. I just..... I'm upset about a few too many things that just don't seem manageable right now. Downright overwhelming in fact. I have made someone uncomfortable and that was the last thing I wanted to do. I don't even know how or what I did. And I hate that. I really hate that. I have questions I cannot figure out and don't know where to begin and then well there's the big one - what if I'm wrong? I mean a big fat in your face it's too late cause you're wrong. And I'm not talking about having ham and cheese for dinner instead of steak. Serious stuff which I'm not writing in detail cause I flat out don't want to.
I miss chip so much it hurts. I know we still IM everyday but it's not the same.
Sometimes I just wish I could start over, redo it something. Because now it's out there and I can't take it back. And there's the option of struggling to take my foot outta my mouth, telling people guess what you know how I always talk about so and so or such and such? Hey guess what?! I'm wrong. Who wants to do that? Sure as flip not me.
So basically I need a hug from Susan - a hang out time w/ Mel this weekend. I need to just relax, pray on it, ask for guidance cause I sure have no clue how to handle any of this, and just go on with my day. And maybe eat a snack.
Okay so here's the thing. My twin and I were talking last night, venting more like but who's counting. A paitent had asked her yesterday if she was married engaged or dating anyone. She said no. He was so so shocked. As in why aren't you married? Don't you WANT to get married? What's wrong w/ you? That type of attitude.
She was automatically defensive. And Saturday the Grandparents and Aunt asked about our status. Single. Hmm well he's out there. Yeah we know. Well don't fret. We're not.... You know some people just arent' MEANT to be married. At want point did we say we didn't want to get married? At what point did it become okay to give out guilt trips about our parents wanting more grandkids? At what flippin point do people get the right to corner us and insinuate that just cause we're 28 and single we should get pity? Yes I want to one day get married. Yes one day I want kids. Yes I miss really great sex. But I don't NEED a man to make my life complete. I know how to live my life w/o a man and have done so before. I've had the great boyfriend that I fell in love with. I've had the boyfriend that made me cringe at the thought of dating again if it would be like that again. I've been there. I know what I want and I more importantly know what I don't want and will not put up with. I refuse to settle for less just so I can join the group of "going steady" the group of "marrieds". Dammit why can't people stop doling out pity and criticism and ask " hey how are you? How are you enjoying life?" they'd get a much better and less defensive answer from both my twin and I. Guarranteed. I know this is bordering on ranting but it really ticks me off. Not to say I haven't had some friends say Gee I can't imagine why you don't have a boyfriend, you're cool!" And that's okay. I can handle that. But the criticism and pity is a crock.
On another note I would so love to curl up in my jammies and lay on the couch. Today's not that terribly great. Okay okay it could be alot worse. I'm good really I am. I just..... I'm upset about a few too many things that just don't seem manageable right now. Downright overwhelming in fact. I have made someone uncomfortable and that was the last thing I wanted to do. I don't even know how or what I did. And I hate that. I really hate that. I have questions I cannot figure out and don't know where to begin and then well there's the big one - what if I'm wrong? I mean a big fat in your face it's too late cause you're wrong. And I'm not talking about having ham and cheese for dinner instead of steak. Serious stuff which I'm not writing in detail cause I flat out don't want to.
I miss chip so much it hurts. I know we still IM everyday but it's not the same.
Sometimes I just wish I could start over, redo it something. Because now it's out there and I can't take it back. And there's the option of struggling to take my foot outta my mouth, telling people guess what you know how I always talk about so and so or such and such? Hey guess what?! I'm wrong. Who wants to do that? Sure as flip not me.
So basically I need a hug from Susan - a hang out time w/ Mel this weekend. I need to just relax, pray on it, ask for guidance cause I sure have no clue how to handle any of this, and just go on with my day. And maybe eat a snack.
Monday, January 12, 2009
Hey Kids
Happy Monday. Here's hoping you all got plenty of rest this weekend.
Me? Still tired.... go figure.
So here's the thing. My mood is off today - just kinda blah and I'm not entirely sure why. Okay okay someone keeps making this sucking through teeth noise and it's literally so irritating I might break down and cry. There...I said it.
I know I'll see my sis after work but I miss her right now. I could use a hug and bad joke.
I think I'm trying too hard to "figure" out this crap mood when in all honesty everyone has days like that. So I'll leave it be.
I'm trying to think of what tattoo(s) I want next. I have had (2) ideas for the past good while but for some reason I am thinking of something else. And I might like this one better. Course I won't say what it is, as I'm not yet 100% sure.
I'm thinking of things I'd like to do or accomplish in the near future.
One would be how to make people STOP banging or tapping fingers on my cube as they walk by. Dude....just say Hi Beth! Blerg!!!!
1) Working out - I need to get back into shape. Not that I'm in this huge I wanna lose a million pounds kick, butI want to feel better. I love to work out, just hard to get back into the habit. But once I did, I felt better, slept better, just all around felt better.
2) I'm seriously considering growing my hair out. Not down to my feet long but longer. I figure I can just keep clipping it off of my face and ignore it for awhile and see how far i get. I kind of miss those messing pony tail/bun things.
That's really about it.
Things I WANT to do in the near future:
1) go thrifting. To some really good thrift places. I'm really wanting some vintage tshirts, some oddly buttoned cardigans, faded jeans, cute dresses and boots for work.
I have all these ideas and by golly I'll find this stuff. I will!!!! And some faded gray corduroys. I love corduroys. So much!
2) To trade in my car and get a new one. I just need to make sure I'm not backward in my payments. I think I even found a vehicle that could make a great ride.
I'm reading this book "The Secret Diary of a Call Girl". Very good read. Interesting, makes me blush alittle, funny, all around I'm enjoying it. However it's totally not for the easily offended reader.
That's it.
It's Monday and thats about it.
Happy Monday. Here's hoping you all got plenty of rest this weekend.
Me? Still tired.... go figure.
So here's the thing. My mood is off today - just kinda blah and I'm not entirely sure why. Okay okay someone keeps making this sucking through teeth noise and it's literally so irritating I might break down and cry. There...I said it.
I know I'll see my sis after work but I miss her right now. I could use a hug and bad joke.
I think I'm trying too hard to "figure" out this crap mood when in all honesty everyone has days like that. So I'll leave it be.
I'm trying to think of what tattoo(s) I want next. I have had (2) ideas for the past good while but for some reason I am thinking of something else. And I might like this one better. Course I won't say what it is, as I'm not yet 100% sure.
I'm thinking of things I'd like to do or accomplish in the near future.
One would be how to make people STOP banging or tapping fingers on my cube as they walk by. Dude....just say Hi Beth! Blerg!!!!
1) Working out - I need to get back into shape. Not that I'm in this huge I wanna lose a million pounds kick, butI want to feel better. I love to work out, just hard to get back into the habit. But once I did, I felt better, slept better, just all around felt better.
2) I'm seriously considering growing my hair out. Not down to my feet long but longer. I figure I can just keep clipping it off of my face and ignore it for awhile and see how far i get. I kind of miss those messing pony tail/bun things.
That's really about it.
Things I WANT to do in the near future:
1) go thrifting. To some really good thrift places. I'm really wanting some vintage tshirts, some oddly buttoned cardigans, faded jeans, cute dresses and boots for work.
I have all these ideas and by golly I'll find this stuff. I will!!!! And some faded gray corduroys. I love corduroys. So much!
2) To trade in my car and get a new one. I just need to make sure I'm not backward in my payments. I think I even found a vehicle that could make a great ride.
I'm reading this book "The Secret Diary of a Call Girl". Very good read. Interesting, makes me blush alittle, funny, all around I'm enjoying it. However it's totally not for the easily offended reader.
That's it.
It's Monday and thats about it.
Thursday, January 8, 2009
List 'O Things
Hey Kids
There's stuff going on. Then there's stuff NOT going on. It's been a bit crazy and stressful this week. My mind is in a jumble today so I'm going to work with a list for today.
1. Heard some bad news and I'm praying hardcore about it.
2. Yesterday was pyscho weather day. Started out at 6 am w/ a wind howling window slamming rain storm. Power flickered a few times while brushing my teeth. Luckily it came back on. Through out the day super heavy up to 50+ gusts of wind. Hey, did I ever mention heavy wind and the sound of it scares me? Was I shaking in my boots? Yeah, a little bit. The weather has calmed down some and for that I am grateful.
3. I have drawn (2) more sharks and I feel good about them. Okay okay I had to get some help from my sister on some of the mouth-ular dimensions.
4. I'm jamming out to shoutcast - impact punk radio. It totally rox so much I can't even stand it. It's THAT good! I love punk.
5. Had a sweet heart fluttering dream about Mr. Crush last night. Woke up w/ a teeny smile.
That's it for now. I cannot seem to make my thoughts and ideas flow evenly today.
There's stuff going on. Then there's stuff NOT going on. It's been a bit crazy and stressful this week. My mind is in a jumble today so I'm going to work with a list for today.
1. Heard some bad news and I'm praying hardcore about it.
2. Yesterday was pyscho weather day. Started out at 6 am w/ a wind howling window slamming rain storm. Power flickered a few times while brushing my teeth. Luckily it came back on. Through out the day super heavy up to 50+ gusts of wind. Hey, did I ever mention heavy wind and the sound of it scares me? Was I shaking in my boots? Yeah, a little bit. The weather has calmed down some and for that I am grateful.
3. I have drawn (2) more sharks and I feel good about them. Okay okay I had to get some help from my sister on some of the mouth-ular dimensions.
4. I'm jamming out to shoutcast - impact punk radio. It totally rox so much I can't even stand it. It's THAT good! I love punk.
5. Had a sweet heart fluttering dream about Mr. Crush last night. Woke up w/ a teeny smile.
That's it for now. I cannot seem to make my thoughts and ideas flow evenly today.
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Dear You
Dear You
I wish you could read my mind
So you would know
Just how much
I truly like you
I wish you could read my thoughts
So you would know
That hugs from you
Make the grayest days seem brighter
That your words
Put a smile on my face
And a skip to my step
Dear You
I wish you could read my mind
So you would know
How much I enjoy your company
So you would know
How much I look forward
To asking about your weekends
I wish you could read my mind
So you would know
The urge I get to tell you
Anything exciting that has happened
The urge I get to call you
And ramble on about the excitement
I get from my drawings
And the questions that seem to
Jump into my mind
At your busiest time of the day
Dear You
I wish you could read my mind
So you would know
Just how much I like you
Dear You
I wish I could read your mind
So I could find out if you
Felt at all the same way
BeB
1/6/09
I wish you could read my mind
So you would know
Just how much
I truly like you
I wish you could read my thoughts
So you would know
That hugs from you
Make the grayest days seem brighter
That your words
Put a smile on my face
And a skip to my step
Dear You
I wish you could read my mind
So you would know
How much I enjoy your company
So you would know
How much I look forward
To asking about your weekends
I wish you could read my mind
So you would know
The urge I get to tell you
Anything exciting that has happened
The urge I get to call you
And ramble on about the excitement
I get from my drawings
And the questions that seem to
Jump into my mind
At your busiest time of the day
Dear You
I wish you could read my mind
So you would know
Just how much I like you
Dear You
I wish I could read your mind
So I could find out if you
Felt at all the same way
BeB
1/6/09
Monday, January 5, 2009
Hey Kids - How's things?
I'm hoping everyone has had a lovely holiday.
In all honesty I'm pretty thrilled to have the holidays over and be back to my normal routine. Call me crazy, call me organized I don't know.
So I've been working on drawing lately. It's something I've always wanted to do since I was a little girl and saw all my dad's drawings. I never thought I'd be good at it and therefore I never tried very hard. I just knew I sucked at it. This past week Mr. Crush and I had a lovely conversation and he told me he thought I was creative and that I seemed like a free spirit (why yes I can be, thanks) and that he thought I ought to take some art classes and hone in on my skills. I never really thought about it before. I just did what I knew I was good at and steered clear from things I wasn't very good at cause really who wants to spend time on something that turns out sucky? Not me. But I kept thinking about it for a good few days. And so I thought well I won't ever get good if I never try it. Maybe I'll be really good and wouldn't have ever known it. So I tried. And I tried again. And guess what?! I'm not half bad and the best part is I so love drawing ocean scenes. I love all things ocean so I find great joy in this. Okay so the sea lion looks like an evil skinned cat. It really freaks me out a bit. But otherwise I have to say Mr. Crush has inspired me (probably unknowingly) and I'm pretty thrilled about it.
I may not be a spotlight artist like Wyland but dude.... I'm damn proud of what I have managed to draw.
My sister cracks me up. I have this pair of brown boots that remind me of round toed cowboy boots. I mostly wear them to work. They're cute and comfortable so it's really a win-win situation. She starts giggling everytime I put them on or walk into a room and lift up my pants leg to show her. I don't know why but she finds these boots to be extremely cute and amusing. Hey go for it I say. We should all be so lucky to have that kind of enthusiam.
I was thinking of a question - a good conversation starter. I was wondering about people and what is their favorite thing in the whole wide world? This doesn't necessarily have to do w/ God and Family. I am torn on this. Of course generally speaking God and My family would be first. But going down the line what would I say?
I'd have to say it's a mixture of good punk music, the ability to express myself creatively whether in words or drawings, anything ocean but the feel, smell and sound of the ocean and beach, tattoos - I so love tattoos and I will surely love the hammerhead shark I plan on getting next. In all honesty the list could go on. But I'll stop.
Lastly - crushes are that. Crushing. It can be exciting and fun and all smiles yet sometimes I miss him so much I feel like such a dork and think wow..... this sucks! I miss him so much it hurts a little. It's crushing....
And that's all I've got for this Monday afternoon.
I'm hoping everyone has had a lovely holiday.
In all honesty I'm pretty thrilled to have the holidays over and be back to my normal routine. Call me crazy, call me organized I don't know.
So I've been working on drawing lately. It's something I've always wanted to do since I was a little girl and saw all my dad's drawings. I never thought I'd be good at it and therefore I never tried very hard. I just knew I sucked at it. This past week Mr. Crush and I had a lovely conversation and he told me he thought I was creative and that I seemed like a free spirit (why yes I can be, thanks) and that he thought I ought to take some art classes and hone in on my skills. I never really thought about it before. I just did what I knew I was good at and steered clear from things I wasn't very good at cause really who wants to spend time on something that turns out sucky? Not me. But I kept thinking about it for a good few days. And so I thought well I won't ever get good if I never try it. Maybe I'll be really good and wouldn't have ever known it. So I tried. And I tried again. And guess what?! I'm not half bad and the best part is I so love drawing ocean scenes. I love all things ocean so I find great joy in this. Okay so the sea lion looks like an evil skinned cat. It really freaks me out a bit. But otherwise I have to say Mr. Crush has inspired me (probably unknowingly) and I'm pretty thrilled about it.
I may not be a spotlight artist like Wyland but dude.... I'm damn proud of what I have managed to draw.
My sister cracks me up. I have this pair of brown boots that remind me of round toed cowboy boots. I mostly wear them to work. They're cute and comfortable so it's really a win-win situation. She starts giggling everytime I put them on or walk into a room and lift up my pants leg to show her. I don't know why but she finds these boots to be extremely cute and amusing. Hey go for it I say. We should all be so lucky to have that kind of enthusiam.
I was thinking of a question - a good conversation starter. I was wondering about people and what is their favorite thing in the whole wide world? This doesn't necessarily have to do w/ God and Family. I am torn on this. Of course generally speaking God and My family would be first. But going down the line what would I say?
I'd have to say it's a mixture of good punk music, the ability to express myself creatively whether in words or drawings, anything ocean but the feel, smell and sound of the ocean and beach, tattoos - I so love tattoos and I will surely love the hammerhead shark I plan on getting next. In all honesty the list could go on. But I'll stop.
Lastly - crushes are that. Crushing. It can be exciting and fun and all smiles yet sometimes I miss him so much I feel like such a dork and think wow..... this sucks! I miss him so much it hurts a little. It's crushing....
And that's all I've got for this Monday afternoon.
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